I don't want to move anymore

like, I do, but theres so much here that I can't just leave, I want to finish highschool here

my parents are looking for jobs in new brunswick now because I opened my fat mouth a while back, and I'm so horrified we'll move, I just want to stay 2 more years, finish what I've started, and then move when I will be able to drive. I can't leave these people, things are going well, I'm really getting close to a particular person that I want things to work out with, and I think they might if I keep at it, but I'm so afraid to get close because I feel like at any minute it could be ripped away. I don't want to leave. But then if I tell them how I'm feeling about it they'll be like 'you're friends are shitty anyway, you'll make new friends, hes just a guy, its only highschool, ontario sucks, its too late, we've applied for a lot of jobs already'

like fuck. ughhh

I think something hard keeps hitting my window and its scaring me

because I'm upstairs.

:s