so my boyfriend went away on the weekend with some friends on a camping trip
and when he got back he told me about these girls that were there and how they hung out with them a bit. he then proceeded to tell me about how one was hitting on him the whole time
and towards the end she tried to kiss him, and he told me that he didn't kiss her
but if he knows the whole time she was hitting on him
AND she tried to kiss him
than clearly he didn't do anything to stop her, and must have sent some sort of signals right?
and then after that it makes me wonder if he DID kiss her
he assured me that when she tried he was like 'I have a girlfriend'
but I've been lied to so many times in relationships I just wonder if he was lying to me then...
and I don't really know how to go about this..
and I couldn't be happier :]
so
me and my friend are good again..I think...
and its summer, I'm done all my exams, I have nothing to do until september 7th...and I think I might die.
like really...I'm barely going to leave my house this summer, like my summer break started just like 4 hours ago..and I already know how bad its going to suck. I have like..2 friends that I'll see, and I can't go to sudburry to see my best friend because shes really sick, and thats really all I look forward to in the summer, and AH ITS JUST BALLS.
and I won't get to hang out with the guy I like, but I don't think I like him anymore, its not really worth my time, when, I don't think he even likes me as a friend, considering he can be quite an asshole, so I'm over it. hopefully I'll find a half decent guy in the summer
you know
in between those time periods where I'm barracaded in my room, or wandering aimlessly.
This Summer 2008
will you...
- dye your hair?
I don't think so
I'm done with that for a while I just dyed it so I'm good
- get a tan, or burn?
burn
a lot of burns
bright red
painful burns.
:]
- go on vacation/trip?
nope (N)
- go camping?
nope
I would like to
see if its as horrifying as I think it would be
- play in the sprinkler?
I hope so
- have your license?
my G1 hopefully
becuase if not
:@
-have a bonfire?
I wish
- have a job?
I wish
- go on any road trips?
ha no
- spend your money or save it?
what money?
- drink too much?
I wish
- do something you didnt before?
maybe who knows
OTHER:
- first day of summer, what will you be doing?
absolutely nothing
like I will the rest of the summer
- who will you spend the most time with?
myself
who do I have that I could spend time with
ha
- do you have any major plans with a friend?
I did
but I don't know if it's gunna happen anymore :[
- who will most likely be sitting beside you at the beach?
what beach
- what will you take the most pictures of?
nothing
- anyone you can't wait to get away from?
everyone :]
- will you make new friends?
nope
- rekindle a lost friendship?
maybe
- will you more likely be at the beach, pool, or lake?
neither
- do you think you will meet a new crush?
whats the point?
- will you have a relationship?
I wish
but I know I won't
- will you eat well or pig out?
pig out more than likely
go back to school weighing like
1943578257 pounds.
so a couple of my friends are mad at me and ignoring me which is lovely really considering I have no idea why well I do but the honest truth is and I can say this in all sincerity I DIDN'T DO A THING. I was talking to a 'friend' I thought I could trust, and just telling her things that had been getting to me lately because I hadn't been very happy, and I asked her not to tell anyone things I said just in case even though they weren't insults. That isn't bad, everybody does that. But she, decided to go to another 'friend' and tell her things I 'said' I heard what it was she told her and let me say this now...I have NO idea where she got those words from because they most definately did NOT come out of my mouth. some did, but not in anyway close to the way she described it to the other person, that the girl who heard this second hand information is now not speaking to me, ever since the day she called me out on it, and I in 100% honesty told her that I didn't say that, but of course why should she believe me, we've only been best friends for 3 years, and she only knows that I hate all liars with every ounce of passion inside me, but of course with those to justify me OBVIOUSLY I must be lying to her right? because we all know that unless it comes from a person as second hand gossip, it couldn't POSSIBLY be the truth. and everyone has been like 'like OMG why haven't you been talking to her?' well, why WOULD I talk to her? I've told her everything I can, which, is the truth, I told her I didn't say it, and I wasn't rude about it, unlike the way she called me out on it, so I have nothing to say, and there really is nothing more I can say until she decides to get over it. but the other day, I called my other friend out on stabbing me in the back (in a much more polite and mature way than my friend did to me mind you.) but she just kept coming back at me saying stuff like, I've been putting her in the middle of all of this, and I've been making her choose sides, but the thing is, in the FOUR days this one friend has been ignoring me, I've talked to the other girl once, and I was telling her what had happened, and asking her if she knew why she was mad at me. It was never my intent to put her in the middle, and when I look back at everything, I don't think I did. and as far as choosing sides goes, she really shouldn't be saying that considering, again I've spoken to her once about it in 4 days, and she keeps telling me 'well, I'm gunna spend my time with her, and not you, because I don't want to seem like I'm choosing sides' WELL, what sides are there to choose from? because as far as I'm concerend this is all feeling pretty damn one sided.
